Is It Me?

 

Have I been blind?

Am I just beginning to see?

Has this really been happening, and if so,

how long has it been happening to me?

 

Is this really happening?

I don’t know.

One moment I’m sure of myself.

the next,

I’m questioning everything I believe.

 

Is it me?

Am I what’s causing us to break?

Or is it you?

How much more can we take?

Please God,

How do we get through this heartache?

 

I can see on your face the pressure, resentment, and pain.

You will deny all of that though and say we’re the ones to blame.

I keep hearing the same words repeatedly,

“You all have a problem with me, but I don’t have a problem with you.”

You voice yours quite often, so we know that you do.

 

I don’t care who’s right or wrong anymore.

I’m just tired of all the accusations,

explanations,

justifications,

condemnations,

misconceptions,  

confrontations,

and the constant contemplation of it all.

 

Is it me?

Am I what’s causing us to break?

Or is it you?

How much more can we take?

Please God,

How do we get through this heartache?

 

I don’t even want you in the same room anymore.

At the same time, I really do.

I miss you.

I feel like I’m grieving.

You’re here,

but at the same time, far away, too.

 

Are you trying to drive me crazy?

You already think I’m insane.

You call me pathetic and say things like,

“I don’t love you, and you used to be a decent human being.”

 

Ouch, right?

Would you forget such things?

 

You said you said I, but I know you said you.

Do you not remember?

I know I do.

Do you even love me anymore?

You call me vindictive and mean,

But I think the same of you.

So, which is it, you or me?

 

Is it me?

Am I what’s causing us to break?

Or is it you?

How much more can we take?

Please God,

How do we get through this heartache?